loosing grip

Have you ever feel empty... so empty that you can't even remember what your dreams are?

I wanna be hurt so I can cry
I wanna be rejected so I can wroth
I wanna be offended so I can curse
I wanna be mad so I can out of breath
I wanna be broken so I can feel pain in my heart

It's like having everything in gray
and taste every single thing sourly
The spirit is slowly dying
Even a slap in the face won't make a change

Which way to go, O' Lord??
Just pointing your finger and lead me to that beautiful place you promise me
I'm more than lost
My sight is blurry
And all i need is a miracle... a little one

Can we work this thing together?
Should I stop or should I walk away?

my comeback

Gezzzz, it's been 4 years since my last post!

I get excited to update my blog coz my thesis is almost done. But to be honest, writing bout shits in here is more fun than writing a thesis. (of course, silly!) L O L

Idea... I need an idea!

I've tried to recall my memory, but nothing comes up.

After a long pause, I feel like my brain fail to function and my heart become as cold as an ice. This is what I hate the most about being recovered from heartache. The stupidity and numb molecules are striking again. How can I twist from loving someone so badly into not wanting him again? From wept into a dry eyes, from favoring romantic movies into watching news channel, from easily scratching stories into.... pointless!

I need a boost. I don't know how to find it, but I'm working on it.

I just hope that I don't have to wait for another 4 years to signing in at my blog (again).

Pointless... this new post is pointless ;(